Dreamer

Hello, 26!

As today is rolling over, I found myself time, while screaming at kids to quit smoking in front of the school in the periods to write down a few words about yesterday!

14 February, the day when everyone shows love to basically everyone, is the day I was born, so yesterday was my 26 anniversary.

However, if you ask my mom it was my 25th. Oh, but how I wish to be 25!

Not that I feel any different, or that I would want to throw back time, but because I think after 25 life starts to end as we are getting closer to death. Statistically, not enough people lived 100 so we can say 25 is just a quarter of life, but more like 40%.

I know, I know, morbid thoughts like suicidal Barbie, but it is a natural part of life! 

Also natural were my depressive first thoughts this morning when I realized that I must get my own place as I am expecting yet another baby! 

A fur baby, of course! Ash is going to be a father, and while he was running in the apartment this morning, I realized how lucky I am to have a landlord that accepts animals, and how much of a pain will be to move out when it will be too far away from work! Searching 2 rooms (one bedroom one living room, no open space, that meets expectations and it’s under 450 euros in Brasov and close to my work is almost pointless at this point!

Yeah, my first thoughts are depressing. However, my day was pretty amazing, tiring but amazing!

It was a full day as I had an exam at 8 am, and then I went home to finish some au choux au craquelin for work, and some preparations for the evening as I had some friends over.

With the dying the other week, a party wasn’t suitable, but a meal with the closest friends! So, after a full day, at 9 PM they arrived and I had an intimate celebration!

Having my closest friends celebrate me and Ash, as it also turned one, was amazing.

Now, letting what I did aside, let me share some other thoughts I have now that this line of 25 has fully passed:

• We are so alone in this life! Losing all the grandparents I had and cared about made me realize how futile life is and how quickly all the family that made me who I am, disappears, leaving me wondering about my choices and with some regrets about the time I spent apart from them! It’s normal to start your own life, and to have activities with different people, but looking back to my high school for example, I would rather spend my days fully at home than out with people I don’t have in my life by choice!
• Time really flies by! I think I’m not the only one who seems to feel like they are running out of time, and I’m not talking about the things I must achieve by a certain age, that’s another bullet point! I talk about the fact that hours seem less than 60 minutes! And I think that there are studies about it to prove it!
• Once you get to a certain age, some friends become family and that’s it! The rest are just people you know and maybe you are there for a drink or something but nothing more.
• You’ll have a work bestie. I know your first job might be scary, but trust me you’ll find your work bestie, even if it’s way older.
• All the glam is futile. At the end of the day, even the most glittery one of you will prefer the comfort of your own home instead of the club, party. Having your dream space is the biggest and best investment you’ll make.
• Pets are a must. It gives you roots. Even if it’s a butterfly, a reptile, a dog, a pigeon. Whatever. It’s an essential thing to do once you decide to grow up. Why? It teaches you unconditional love, discipline, and care.

And that’s it!

I’ll let you have #adreamerlife!

Cristiana Apreutese